累了。

每当心情糟糕时，总喜欢听着悲伤的歌让自己沉淀在自己的情绪里面。
而今晚也不例外。忽然心血来潮想要在部落格里面发泄自己的情绪一下。
读了其中一个好朋友的部落格，她说最经的她遇到不好的事，而这些变化让她变了。
我也想说，最近的我也变得这样了。容易伤感，变得脆弱。
很想把自己弄到开朗一些，坚强一些，尽量去想开心的事，但很难做到。
尤其当你听到一些让你心碎的事情，很想说”我的心，何时你也变得这么脆弱了“
试着看好笑的节目让自己大笑一场，但是笑了过后，伤心又找上门来。
大考就要到了，但是现在的我根本就没有哪个心情想要温习功课。
心，很累。
本来想要好好的睡一觉，但是家人一直在我耳边碎碎念，投诉这个那个。
好好声跟说，我很累，想休息，但是她就是不肯停下来，就一直在那边念你。
这让很少沟通的我们很快就吵起来了，其实真的很想多了解他们，跟他们亲，但是就是有点难。可能家里发生太多事了，而我也习惯性的把所有心事都往心里藏。
真的很希望我不是最大的，那我的责任也没那么大了。
很多负面的想法跟随着自己，很不喜欢那么negative的自己。
看过一本书说，所有负面的情绪都是因为自己负面的想法而造成的。
试着想些好的事情，那好运也会跟随你。但是说得容易，做就很难。
那么容易做到，世上就不会那么多人自杀和emo了。
而伤心的歌也不会存在了。


很想去旅行。。
想去海边让海浪或海风吹走所有的不开心。。。
希望自己能够赶快好起来。。

想念爸爸，姑姑，和你了。
虽然知道你不会想我。但还是会想起你。
晚安世界。

April baby

Last week was my darling aka cousin Denise's birthday.

Decided to celebrate with her in CEO@Neway

It has been ages since we all gather and crazy together.

Always feel grateful that me and the cousins can be so close to each other.

Since it's rare to see that, people will be that close with their cousins.

Some photos on that day =)

Pei pei and me =)

The birthday girl and me =) always love you.

Cousin Manda =)

Michelle and me =)

The best moment on that day was dancing in the room with all the kpop songs.

Yeah (Y)

Kinda proud to have kpop fans cousins since i'm into Kpop as well =)

I guess i'd never been so crazy before --"

All of us went hyper.

ps: Bet the adults will go O.O when they find out Michelle dance with us as well.

Tea session at Coffee Bean@Pavilion after singing for around 6 hours.

I love you girls.

Using iphone 4s to camwhore

@cousin Manda and sis

Lastly a pic of 4 of us. FINALLY!!

ps: Thank you Peipei for fetching us again. XoXo

Complicated mood that i'm having recently. Hopefully i'll be fine soon.

I need huggiessssss

Read my cousin's blog just now.

Got an article is talking about her mom which is my aunt

and it made me emo right after reading it :(

I thought of Daddy this morning when i was driving to coll

He just suddenly appeared in my mind.

I still remember how he'll fetch me to coll sometimes

and wait for me to finish my class in the foyer with his laptop.

Although it has been 2 years since he left us

somehow i still can feel his existence.

And yes, i can't understand why good people like him and my aunt

have to leave. While the bad people are still living.

It's just so not fair.

Good Start of March

前天终于有机会跟我的那帮老朋友聚一聚。

这么久没见，一见面就讲个不停，很喜欢那种跟他们一起废的感觉。

今年是我最后一个学期呆在学院了，总觉得这个学期的时间都过得好快。感觉自己有点赶不上节奏。

有时在想如果毕业了，我能做什么，我能够找到一份收入稳定的工作吗，如果找不到怎么办？我要怎么减轻妈妈的负担？

说真的，自己还很担心自己的未来。。读书真的比做工好很多，但是该面对的还是要面对。

虽然三月都会很忙，朋友生日，结婚，考试。。

不过我很喜欢今年的三月。

我做梦也没想到，我一直希望的事情可以在这个月里实现。

虽然还有点不踏实的感觉，无论如何，我还是很感激。

感激这难得的机会。

去年和前年都失去了我最爱的两个人，真的不希望再看到我身边任何亲的人再出事了，我的心脏会无法承受。

只希望妈妈能够没事，那我就心满一足了。